Penantian

setiap kali kau jatuh, akan aku hulurkan tangan ini dan bantu. bila kau sedih, akan aku pujuk hati itu dan buat kau tersenyum. jangan pernah kau mengeluh, jangan pernah kau berduka. buat segala yang kau hendak, dan aku, :) aku akan sentiasa berada di sini. jangan pernah kau rasa susah, bila aku korbankan setitik peluh kerana senyuman kau sentiasa buat aku suka. dan bila kita rasa rindu, dan susah, sabar dan senyum sahaja, kerana, ada rezeki yang lebih baik menanti. mungkin tuhan sengaja menguji kita, menyelamatkan kita. jadi sabar sahaja. aku ada di sini. menanti.. jikalau kau jodoh terbaik untukku, tak usah aku gusar kan? dan jika aku jodoh terbaik untuk kau, mudah mudahan, kau tahu :)

cerita skaf bunga

SHOCKINGG! yayy, u really did came to meet me. :) waiting for a couple of hours its ok i guess. boleh buat lagii... haha. yela... kejap ktm shah alam, kejap kl sentral. so i decided to go to mid valley and meet you there. haaa senanggkannn huhu. tapi jam pula tsk tsk... jalan jalan window shopping pun takpe, sbb next weeknya payday alangkah sukanya kalau gaji dah masuk masa tuuu. :p boleh beli belah time tu haha.

Konon-konon nak buat muka marah, merajuk butttt...... tak boleh, even im hot mad when i get to see you infront of me, you make me smile away. i mish you really i mish you. all the week ive been merajuk dgn you is for my goodness. you broke my little heart. how could you, really.. its a lesson to teach you, how it feels when you really want me gone. do you feel lonely without me dear? do you feel of want to cry when i said that im leaving you? well i felt it before i ever could say it.

"I dah nampak you (giggled)" si manis berkata... from far away.... i saw you searching. hmmm how will it be if i never showed up? :( you'll be just standing there with your friend. wandering around thinking what you've done perhaps. but i did. i would feel really kejam, if i were at ur place.

"Nak amin.. nak amin :) (you looked very scared+ashamed+happy, cmne tu?? haaa tu yang i nampak lah hehe)" jejaka meminta.. haha. ya saya suka dimanja.... nak peluk awak kuatkuat boleh? hmmm... :(

Ahhh... u tried to pleased me. dah lama kita tak tengok wayang and makan samasama. lagilagi, dapat cakapcakap lelama kan? i malu.. emm.... mana tak! saya makan pun awak nak curikcurik pandang. macam lah i tak nampak. haha i ada 4 mata tau. jangan mainmain hehe.

Dear love, do you know that you made me laugh out loud when i watched you? haha. penakut nak cakap dengan orang jaga tiket kaunter! i dah beritahu cakap beli tiket station apaapa lepas tu tanya naik platform mana, tu pun susah. huhuhu. you kata you budak kampung, tapi pakai kereta hoh. i ni kereta pun tak bawaaakk. hehe sbb takde lesen :p katanya it was your second time naik train. awww kecian dia. huhu. takpe, let that be our memories together. naik train sama2 huhu. and it was your last day anyway :( nak balik jb dah kan. you took all the pictures of me as much as you could. are you ok dear? :'( im right here.

As we arrived at Bandar Tasik Selatan, i was keeping my tears a side. knowing that you'll be going soon. your ticket was at 2.30pm and its 2.10pm already, why so soooonnn??? its okay, your the one who has to go on the bus. i dont want anything to happen to you. we had a walk around the area, its like an airport. LOL. teruja kot sebenarnya jalanjalan tgk kedai dalam tu hehe. and we went to this gift store, ada skaf katanya. awwww comel skaf skaf sana huhu. u pulled one by one and put it on me. :) comel ke? huhu i dah lama tak pakai skaf. tapi awak, saya tak ada duit. :( cukup nak balik naik train je. awak pun ada berapa je tuk balik nanti. takpe awak simpan dulu k duit tu. nanti, bila kita jumpa lagi, kita ada duit lebih, kita cari skaf sama k!

cut, cut, cut!! cut bahagian sedih time you nak balik tu huhuhu :'(

Well pendek cerita sebenarnya i hope your words will be true. that you'll love me as i do for you. jaga i, didik i, insyaAllah.. bila sampai masa, tekad dan tawakal insyaAllah, Allah jawabkan doa kami. tahu? setiap lelaki yang jatuhkan airmata wanita ke tanah, sesungguhnya berdosa besar? betul ke? saya dengar dari kawan... saya tahu awak akan baca ni nanti :p jadi kalau awak tahu betul ke tak, kongsi2 k dgn i.

Sorry k bahasa dah tunggang langgang :D kononnya nak jadi penulis cerita yang berjaya hehehe.

iloveyou :)

Hurt.

friend, i thought you were to be trusted. and you, thanks for stabbing my back. all that i ever hoped came crushed when i knew. you wanted another chance if you somehow could come back for me, but what happened to the chances i gave you thousands time back then? you took me for granted. how silly i am. and fooled... im not mad if you ever want to go and flirt someone else, i am open to let you go as u pleased, i'll pray you thousands of times to make you happy, for sure i know i havent pleased you a bit. a minute you were here, but in a second you disappear. you left me out alone. i fell, and i was hurt. i dont think, no one could ever heal this wound. not even you. :'(

crackeology

Is it true? my heart asks,scaredly

Why did you do? i wonder,sadly

I'll be alone this time. Yes i have too,cowardly

.can you do one favor for me.

that you'll never EVER make this tears drop.

neither when im here, neither when im not.

-thislovefreaksout-

Jannah Abdullah

the.night.we.celebrate.your.birthday.dear.

jannah. sedapkan nama tu? :) bermaksud syurga... wahhh gitu hehe. yeah.. he was im with a year long. we had something together. what we call love. love doesnt mean that we own it. its not ours if Allah swt said so. it was tough for us two. but somehow i realize there's been obstacles trying to pull us apart. dear jannah, im sorry if i had done bad things towards you. im really sorry. i never wanted you to shed tears even a drop just because of me. thanks for the love you gave. those smiles and giggles for me at times when we met and in phones. though you dont quiet talk alot. hee :D i sayangkan u. but i dont know, i ,yg u mahu. i tahu ramai lagi yang lebih layak untuk u. i sentiasa doakan u. mana yang terbaik. mcm mana sakit atau pedih i terasa, i tak pernah berhenti doakan untuk u. u said i tak pernah fikirkan tentang u. well i did. and i cried. :'( since the first time we met in kuantan and the last time at johor bharu. such memories kan sayang? its not i dont want to tell everyone here in this blog, its just because i forgotten about it. and there was too many to share about. jannah, i tak mampu jadi seseorang yang u harapkan, and it will make u sad i know. and again i dont want it to be that way, tengok u kecewa tentang i. i mcm budakbudak i tahu. hmmmppp budakbudak. :( i miss you. being us near. boleh tolong ingat, yang i sayangkan u. jangan pernah lupa :'( if apa-apa terjadi.

cupcakechump!

yes, i'm not gonna lie myself, that my new hobby or interest is baking. HAHA. lame isn't it? :D i know its a boring hobby but i found it fun baking cupcakes for parties,presents, door gift or any events. yup! that's right. i'm starting a business here at Bukit Raja, Klang where my home is. i had positive feed backs when my friends and family tasted (quite alot!) and see that i can bake. huhu absurd ain't i? :) well friends take this as a fun thing that u can add up in your parties and etc... it's a CUTE CUPCAKE. who wouldn't resist it? :p Alhamdulillah it's going great! i'll be opening up a new blog for 'cupcakechump'. insyaAllah. stay tuned :D

looking at this makes my mouth watery

LOL!

LIRIK MAHU KAMU - by hawayusof

aku terbang membuka sayapku

melihat burung berkicauan

menyanyi bersamaku

aku mahu kamu

oh mahu kamu

saat pertama bersama kamu

ku leka melihat senyummu

aku mencuri hati untuk kamu

ku mahu kamu

oh oh mahu kamu

indah kau sambut

pelangi terbentuk

bunga bunga ku lihat

kamu mahu aku

mahu aku

saat pertama bersama kamu

kau punya aku

memang punya aku

ku mahu kamu

oh oh mahu kamu

kau peganglah kunci hati

mahu kamu bagi nanti

boleh ku buka untuk satu hari nanti

ku mahu kamu, mahu kamu.

M. AFZAN

Afzan, i just cant hold myself from crying when i heard you.

As if i felt how pain you are.

try too be strong to stay alive as long as you can.

don't ever give up hope.

i'll be right here, and your other friends praying for you.

when you said u were glad to have a friend like me, i should be glad to have a friend like you.

you will always be remembered and loved.

thanks for all this moment together.

thanks Afzan. :'(

nothing for you, and nothing for me

its been a while. i had a call. and you know, i was really terrified. one thing that i can't imagined the most is that knowing you are with somebody else. i was thrown far away, i just couldnt say. my eyes shed more tears a day. this is my confessions...

if i want to say, i better say it all. u were once i adored, i hoped nothing more than just you. people just promise as it was just words of emptiness hope. that u can never trust no more. what happen to 'love until i die'. all the tiny presents i had from you. i never had feelings with somebody how when i was with you. but that night, how you see me through. i saw, that your love is no longer mine. shes whats important now. im a hollow body, trapped in this world waiting for nothing to let me pass through here.

i better confess it now... how i hate to hear your voice.when i know it no longer bring me smile. tho i want to know how your doing just kills me right.

i better confess it now... how i want you to leave me. but i just couldn't stop looking at my phone hoping u give a beep.

i better confess it now... oh i just want you to throw the things i gave to you so you wont remember me that you will always hold me dear. as i just remove all the things i had with you somewhere i wish i couldnt find it near.

go... please go... dont reach me if you dont want to see me cry. im sick. so theres nothing for you and nothing for me. what i really want 1 year ago was my only one wish.

I'll be fine

So here I'm standing all alone, independently on my own
Looking down, staring at my toes
What's up my head nobody knows
I'm still hurt but that's okay, I was stupid, what can I say?
When it's all over, it rewinds

It never seems to come out right,
So we'll just walk away and I guess that's alright
And I'm always left confused but I don't mind
Now don't you worry I'll be fine

You're so convincing so I see, it's in the way you look at me
Your smile just somehow hypnotizes - to simply see truth in your eyes
So it's you I once adored, I'm not a little girl no more
Cause I am used to these kinda games, they come and go again and again

It never seems to turn out right,
So we'll just end it here and I guess that's alright
And now I'm all alone but I don't mind
It's better get away I'll be fine.