will your heart ever be mine? :')

Ya Allah.. tabahkan hati ini untuk apa jua ketentuanMu.. why is he so confuse. :'( sampai bila perlu rasa ..perlu tunggu.. jawapan yang pasti hati dia untuk saya. Yang pasti hati semua milik Allah. Ya Allah kau tetapkanlah hatinya. bukakan matanya.. hatinya.. I really wish he realize that im not her. And shes not here for him anymore. Why ask something that you could remind me of her. Your smart to think of it yourself. And your too scared to admit it. Dear loved one, perhatikan apa yg Allah dah tetapkan.. kenapa nak berputus asa sedangkaan segala ujian Allah berikan hanya untuk kita ingatkan Nya, hanya untuk menunjukkan bahawa Dia sentiasa mengingati kita. dont ever despair.. have you ever wonder why im here? How ive always open my heart when you know youve done so much things that anyone could hurt so badly? And you know that im hurt. Have you ever realize.. you came back to me everytim when your alone. Remember? How I was really happy that I thought you've made up your mind for choosing me? :') I wish that I was never a mistake in your life. Allah lebih memahami.

Our First JB 10KM Run

 hi peeps! Hehe just got back from johor bahru. Ive had my run yesterday with my dearly jahn awwww hes being sweet too much :D

I never thought that he would be running with me. Haha sorry... :p he keeps saying that he cant run that far. But now ... there you go, I heard hes gonna try to run for another event to prove it wasnt 4 mins away from me for yesterdays run. LOL!

Sayang betul I tak tipu . You were really 4 mins away je hehehe. A lil congrats for him. You did great! I love youuu.. harap you lari tinggalkan I jauh semalam bukan sebab nak ngorat orang lain hee :p kecian I sorangsorang lari esh esh esh hehehe.

We took some pics. But most of it is in his iphone because my phone is too big to bring :(

It was getting late..ive got to get back to klang. Thanks for this 2 days dear. Wish it never
had to end.

ComeBack.

Hi everyone.

Days passes by so quickly and it has been 10 months after my last post? :( I've been busy working and now I'm running. cant you believe it??! i cant too. LOL 10 kilometres is not NEAR, that i can say. ehe..

But its a new thing that i can see in myself. :) i never see me, being a runner in the future. All i can remember was running from running. you see? HAHA. :D Yeah and i did a few 10km's lately.. and experience ending up in the ambulance once. :p Honestly, i quiet enjoy it tho. not being injured and got carried away by the ambulance sillyyy.... I enjoyed running. Now i know i can atleast run for 10-12km's why dont i just keep running for my health and beauty. yelaaaa people are halfway seeing me as mila kunis. why not try to get to be LIKE HERRR... :"D wah.... Amin... Amin... 

About my job, i got my Permanent Position on the month of puasa, i got my first bonus advance the same month, and celebrated my 22nd birthday the same month as well (kena suka ke? reminds me of being tua already buhoo :p). Alhamdulillah, tho its not what i really expect in this year, i really appreciate what Allah had given to me. Who expects righttt?? Im 22years old holding a good position, good salary, with a diploma. Friends, this is all written. though you guys are not having jobs like i am, but hey, look at the bright side, your going for your degree, and its really AWESOME. Do your best! this means you can do much more then i can. so dont worry much okay? :D

One more... he's back. Alhamdulillah. Im happy and so does he. its not im being weak or theres no other guys to go to?? i just cant let him away from my feelings and deleting him for good. he really means so much to me. and everyone is giving greenlights or nice compliment about me, and somehow made him realize, how much i have or do for him ( i guess) in the couple of years back then. :( 3 months ago was the hardest. sayang... i really, really want you to know that, i dont want to feel that way again. i'm scared... :'( i miss you.

okay thats enough to make my eyes shut already huuuuu :'D (wiping my tears off). Semoga Allah memberkati setiap langkah dan niat semua. Amin.. InsyaAllah... Assalamualaikum. toodles!

Things going by

Assalamualaikum hi again :) just want to share with you guys that i finally got the job as a Secretary in Bank Rakyat. its was quiet tough and challenging. but its ok lets give it a try maybe this is my way for living.

Yesterday, i got a really sad news from a friend. a friend of mine passed away two weeks before. arwah was someone nice. let us pray for him. Al fatihah.

on the mean time.. i heard something else instead. my bf ex's tried to get back to him. what am i suppose to do? its really hard for me. i wish he knew. i wish he would never picked up the call. maybe you can see me smile look at me listening to you. but i was so touched, and i didnt even want us to get in a fight. just hope that you knew. :( you know its so hard to meet each other. and i came with my family, and i wanted to be happy with you.. spend my time every second with you. just hope you understand. i dont want anyone to get in the way. what did i ever do to get this.

there's nothing special than you

there's nothing meaningful than my times with you

everything is priceless when i lost you

if there ever comes a day that we can't be together

keep me in your heart

i'll stay there forever