Things going by

Assalamualaikum hi again :) just want to share with you guys that i finally got the job as a Secretary in Bank Rakyat. its was quiet tough and challenging. but its ok lets give it a try maybe this is my way for living.

Yesterday, i got a really sad news from a friend. a friend of mine passed away two weeks before. arwah was someone nice. let us pray for him. Al fatihah.

on the mean time.. i heard something else instead. my bf ex's tried to get back to him. what am i suppose to do? its really hard for me. i wish he knew. i wish he would never picked up the call. maybe you can see me smile look at me listening to you. but i was so touched, and i didnt even want us to get in a fight. just hope that you knew. :( you know its so hard to meet each other. and i came with my family, and i wanted to be happy with you.. spend my time every second with you. just hope you understand. i dont want anyone to get in the way. what did i ever do to get this.

there's nothing special than you

there's nothing meaningful than my times with you

everything is priceless when i lost you

if there ever comes a day that we can't be together

keep me in your heart

i'll stay there forever

Penantian

setiap kali kau jatuh, akan aku hulurkan tangan ini dan bantu. bila kau sedih, akan aku pujuk hati itu dan buat kau tersenyum. jangan pernah kau mengeluh, jangan pernah kau berduka. buat segala yang kau hendak, dan aku, :) aku akan sentiasa berada di sini. jangan pernah kau rasa susah, bila aku korbankan setitik peluh kerana senyuman kau sentiasa buat aku suka. dan bila kita rasa rindu, dan susah, sabar dan senyum sahaja, kerana, ada rezeki yang lebih baik menanti. mungkin tuhan sengaja menguji kita, menyelamatkan kita. jadi sabar sahaja. aku ada di sini. menanti.. jikalau kau jodoh terbaik untukku, tak usah aku gusar kan? dan jika aku jodoh terbaik untuk kau, mudah mudahan, kau tahu :)

cerita skaf bunga

SHOCKINGG! yayy, u really did came to meet me. :) waiting for a couple of hours its ok i guess. boleh buat lagii... haha. yela... kejap ktm shah alam, kejap kl sentral. so i decided to go to mid valley and meet you there. haaa senanggkannn huhu. tapi jam pula tsk tsk... jalan jalan window shopping pun takpe, sbb next weeknya payday alangkah sukanya kalau gaji dah masuk masa tuuu. :p boleh beli belah time tu haha.

Konon-konon nak buat muka marah, merajuk butttt...... tak boleh, even im hot mad when i get to see you infront of me, you make me smile away. i mish you really i mish you. all the week ive been merajuk dgn you is for my goodness. you broke my little heart. how could you, really.. its a lesson to teach you, how it feels when you really want me gone. do you feel lonely without me dear? do you feel of want to cry when i said that im leaving you? well i felt it before i ever could say it.

"I dah nampak you (giggled)" si manis berkata... from far away.... i saw you searching. hmmm how will it be if i never showed up? :( you'll be just standing there with your friend. wandering around thinking what you've done perhaps. but i did. i would feel really kejam, if i were at ur place.

"Nak amin.. nak amin :) (you looked very scared+ashamed+happy, cmne tu?? haaa tu yang i nampak lah hehe)" jejaka meminta.. haha. ya saya suka dimanja.... nak peluk awak kuatkuat boleh? hmmm... :(

Ahhh... u tried to pleased me. dah lama kita tak tengok wayang and makan samasama. lagilagi, dapat cakapcakap lelama kan? i malu.. emm.... mana tak! saya makan pun awak nak curikcurik pandang. macam lah i tak nampak. haha i ada 4 mata tau. jangan mainmain hehe.

Dear love, do you know that you made me laugh out loud when i watched you? haha. penakut nak cakap dengan orang jaga tiket kaunter! i dah beritahu cakap beli tiket station apaapa lepas tu tanya naik platform mana, tu pun susah. huhuhu. you kata you budak kampung, tapi pakai kereta hoh. i ni kereta pun tak bawaaakk. hehe sbb takde lesen :p katanya it was your second time naik train. awww kecian dia. huhu. takpe, let that be our memories together. naik train sama2 huhu. and it was your last day anyway :( nak balik jb dah kan. you took all the pictures of me as much as you could. are you ok dear? :'( im right here.

As we arrived at Bandar Tasik Selatan, i was keeping my tears a side. knowing that you'll be going soon. your ticket was at 2.30pm and its 2.10pm already, why so soooonnn??? its okay, your the one who has to go on the bus. i dont want anything to happen to you. we had a walk around the area, its like an airport. LOL. teruja kot sebenarnya jalanjalan tgk kedai dalam tu hehe. and we went to this gift store, ada skaf katanya. awwww comel skaf skaf sana huhu. u pulled one by one and put it on me. :) comel ke? huhu i dah lama tak pakai skaf. tapi awak, saya tak ada duit. :( cukup nak balik naik train je. awak pun ada berapa je tuk balik nanti. takpe awak simpan dulu k duit tu. nanti, bila kita jumpa lagi, kita ada duit lebih, kita cari skaf sama k!

cut, cut, cut!! cut bahagian sedih time you nak balik tu huhuhu :'(

Well pendek cerita sebenarnya i hope your words will be true. that you'll love me as i do for you. jaga i, didik i, insyaAllah.. bila sampai masa, tekad dan tawakal insyaAllah, Allah jawabkan doa kami. tahu? setiap lelaki yang jatuhkan airmata wanita ke tanah, sesungguhnya berdosa besar? betul ke? saya dengar dari kawan... saya tahu awak akan baca ni nanti :p jadi kalau awak tahu betul ke tak, kongsi2 k dgn i.

Sorry k bahasa dah tunggang langgang :D kononnya nak jadi penulis cerita yang berjaya hehehe.

iloveyou :)

Hurt.

friend, i thought you were to be trusted. and you, thanks for stabbing my back. all that i ever hoped came crushed when i knew. you wanted another chance if you somehow could come back for me, but what happened to the chances i gave you thousands time back then? you took me for granted. how silly i am. and fooled... im not mad if you ever want to go and flirt someone else, i am open to let you go as u pleased, i'll pray you thousands of times to make you happy, for sure i know i havent pleased you a bit. a minute you were here, but in a second you disappear. you left me out alone. i fell, and i was hurt. i dont think, no one could ever heal this wound. not even you. :'(

crackeology

Is it true? my heart asks,scaredly

Why did you do? i wonder,sadly

I'll be alone this time. Yes i have too,cowardly

.can you do one favor for me.

that you'll never EVER make this tears drop.

neither when im here, neither when im not.

-thislovefreaksout-

Jannah Abdullah

the.night.we.celebrate.your.birthday.dear.

jannah. sedapkan nama tu? :) bermaksud syurga... wahhh gitu hehe. yeah.. he was im with a year long. we had something together. what we call love. love doesnt mean that we own it. its not ours if Allah swt said so. it was tough for us two. but somehow i realize there's been obstacles trying to pull us apart. dear jannah, im sorry if i had done bad things towards you. im really sorry. i never wanted you to shed tears even a drop just because of me. thanks for the love you gave. those smiles and giggles for me at times when we met and in phones. though you dont quiet talk alot. hee :D i sayangkan u. but i dont know, i ,yg u mahu. i tahu ramai lagi yang lebih layak untuk u. i sentiasa doakan u. mana yang terbaik. mcm mana sakit atau pedih i terasa, i tak pernah berhenti doakan untuk u. u said i tak pernah fikirkan tentang u. well i did. and i cried. :'( since the first time we met in kuantan and the last time at johor bharu. such memories kan sayang? its not i dont want to tell everyone here in this blog, its just because i forgotten about it. and there was too many to share about. jannah, i tak mampu jadi seseorang yang u harapkan, and it will make u sad i know. and again i dont want it to be that way, tengok u kecewa tentang i. i mcm budakbudak i tahu. hmmmppp budakbudak. :( i miss you. being us near. boleh tolong ingat, yang i sayangkan u. jangan pernah lupa :'( if apa-apa terjadi.

cupcakechump!

yes, i'm not gonna lie myself, that my new hobby or interest is baking. HAHA. lame isn't it? :D i know its a boring hobby but i found it fun baking cupcakes for parties,presents, door gift or any events. yup! that's right. i'm starting a business here at Bukit Raja, Klang where my home is. i had positive feed backs when my friends and family tasted (quite alot!) and see that i can bake. huhu absurd ain't i? :) well friends take this as a fun thing that u can add up in your parties and etc... it's a CUTE CUPCAKE. who wouldn't resist it? :p Alhamdulillah it's going great! i'll be opening up a new blog for 'cupcakechump'. insyaAllah. stay tuned :D

looking at this makes my mouth watery

LOL!