Jannah Abdullah

the.night.we.celebrate.your.birthday.dear.

jannah. sedapkan nama tu? :) bermaksud syurga... wahhh gitu hehe. yeah.. he was im with a year long. we had something together. what we call love. love doesnt mean that we own it. its not ours if Allah swt said so. it was tough for us two. but somehow i realize there's been obstacles trying to pull us apart. dear jannah, im sorry if i had done bad things towards you. im really sorry. i never wanted you to shed tears even a drop just because of me. thanks for the love you gave. those smiles and giggles for me at times when we met and in phones. though you dont quiet talk alot. hee :D i sayangkan u. but i dont know, i ,yg u mahu. i tahu ramai lagi yang lebih layak untuk u. i sentiasa doakan u. mana yang terbaik. mcm mana sakit atau pedih i terasa, i tak pernah berhenti doakan untuk u. u said i tak pernah fikirkan tentang u. well i did. and i cried. :'( since the first time we met in kuantan and the last time at johor bharu. such memories kan sayang? its not i dont want to tell everyone here in this blog, its just because i forgotten about it. and there was too many to share about. jannah, i tak mampu jadi seseorang yang u harapkan, and it will make u sad i know. and again i dont want it to be that way, tengok u kecewa tentang i. i mcm budakbudak i tahu. hmmmppp budakbudak. :( i miss you. being us near. boleh tolong ingat, yang i sayangkan u. jangan pernah lupa :'( if apa-apa terjadi.

cupcakechump!

yes, i'm not gonna lie myself, that my new hobby or interest is baking. HAHA. lame isn't it? :D i know its a boring hobby but i found it fun baking cupcakes for parties,presents, door gift or any events. yup! that's right. i'm starting a business here at Bukit Raja, Klang where my home is. i had positive feed backs when my friends and family tasted (quite alot!) and see that i can bake. huhu absurd ain't i? :) well friends take this as a fun thing that u can add up in your parties and etc... it's a CUTE CUPCAKE. who wouldn't resist it? :p Alhamdulillah it's going great! i'll be opening up a new blog for 'cupcakechump'. insyaAllah. stay tuned :D

looking at this makes my mouth watery

LOL!

LIRIK MAHU KAMU - by hawayusof

aku terbang membuka sayapku

melihat burung berkicauan

menyanyi bersamaku

aku mahu kamu

oh mahu kamu

saat pertama bersama kamu

ku leka melihat senyummu

aku mencuri hati untuk kamu

ku mahu kamu

oh oh mahu kamu

indah kau sambut

pelangi terbentuk

bunga bunga ku lihat

kamu mahu aku

mahu aku

saat pertama bersama kamu

kau punya aku

memang punya aku

ku mahu kamu

oh oh mahu kamu

kau peganglah kunci hati

mahu kamu bagi nanti

boleh ku buka untuk satu hari nanti

ku mahu kamu, mahu kamu.

M. AFZAN

Afzan, i just cant hold myself from crying when i heard you.

As if i felt how pain you are.

try too be strong to stay alive as long as you can.

don't ever give up hope.

i'll be right here, and your other friends praying for you.

when you said u were glad to have a friend like me, i should be glad to have a friend like you.

you will always be remembered and loved.

thanks for all this moment together.

thanks Afzan. :'(

nothing for you, and nothing for me

its been a while. i had a call. and you know, i was really terrified. one thing that i can't imagined the most is that knowing you are with somebody else. i was thrown far away, i just couldnt say. my eyes shed more tears a day. this is my confessions...

if i want to say, i better say it all. u were once i adored, i hoped nothing more than just you. people just promise as it was just words of emptiness hope. that u can never trust no more. what happen to 'love until i die'. all the tiny presents i had from you. i never had feelings with somebody how when i was with you. but that night, how you see me through. i saw, that your love is no longer mine. shes whats important now. im a hollow body, trapped in this world waiting for nothing to let me pass through here.

i better confess it now... how i hate to hear your voice.when i know it no longer bring me smile. tho i want to know how your doing just kills me right.

i better confess it now... how i want you to leave me. but i just couldn't stop looking at my phone hoping u give a beep.

i better confess it now... oh i just want you to throw the things i gave to you so you wont remember me that you will always hold me dear. as i just remove all the things i had with you somewhere i wish i couldnt find it near.

go... please go... dont reach me if you dont want to see me cry. im sick. so theres nothing for you and nothing for me. what i really want 1 year ago was my only one wish.

I'll be fine

So here I'm standing all alone, independently on my own
Looking down, staring at my toes
What's up my head nobody knows
I'm still hurt but that's okay, I was stupid, what can I say?
When it's all over, it rewinds

It never seems to come out right,
So we'll just walk away and I guess that's alright
And I'm always left confused but I don't mind
Now don't you worry I'll be fine

You're so convincing so I see, it's in the way you look at me
Your smile just somehow hypnotizes - to simply see truth in your eyes
So it's you I once adored, I'm not a little girl no more
Cause I am used to these kinda games, they come and go again and again

It never seems to turn out right,
So we'll just end it here and I guess that's alright
And now I'm all alone but I don't mind
It's better get away I'll be fine.

New Year!

New Year!

Azam tahun baru ini... let see.

- azam tahun lepas pun tak terbuat
- do i have too? its like a tradition bila setiap tahun akan berakhir
- wait, ur not even gonna make any change while just sitting at home. daaaaaaa..... sigh.
- mesti carik keje, thats what i have too.
- simpan doit lah!
- make physical change to myself, i think so? (buat faham2 je k)
- amek lesen semestinya!
- uh! uh! nak keretaaaaaaa please ayahhhhh... LOL!
- improve my amal ibadat. insyaAllah.
- jodoh? huff.....
- carik rumah :)

yeah i think i listed all of it. ngeh ngeh... baru pukul 1030 and im already tired! damn... haha
memang org jenis tak boleh bawak keluar punya. huhu