remembering my childhood memories

hi again, it's been a while. today i would like to tell you about my childhood past. and there you go a few shots when i was little. back then i was really cute ain't i. hahaha so perasan, sorry.

what can i say, yeah... i have a few big fans, all the uncle-uncle and makcik-makcik. hehehe sometimes they would rebut to carry me. LOL! my dad said, 'entah kenapa orang nak sangat dukung hawa tu, ibu ayah siap osom sebab tak larat angkat, TERLEBIH SIHAT lah katakan'. grrr... i took that as a compliment though sigh'.

i was the only girl in the family so why not put on some pretty things to her. and there you go a fashionista in the age 2yrs. some of my friends said, i dont look like malay, ok heres what they usually see me as ( chinese, mamak, philipine, siam, indonesian, arab, omputeh and sekian lanjutnya kalau boleh nak letak semua nama negara) because they dont see my face similar to my siblings. what?? im adopted now? hahaha no exactly. i came from a family from javanese (my dad side) and bugis (my mom side). i think i dont look like my parents too. i just have thier nose and smile. my parents would always like battle each other nak cakap muka ni macam muka masing-masing when setiap kali people would say something nice about me like 'comelnya muka diaaa' or even 'alolorh mata sape dia ada neh'. comon ibu.. dad.. you know im your only daughter. :)

asry, me, zuhry

grandpa :(

but time flew by fast now and im 20yrs already. i miss my atuk and nenek. looking at thier photos recently. your always in my heart and i'll never forget you.

ok people, always remember your childhood memories, it maybe funny, or horrible but i know it is something you dont wanna hilang it.

its precious.

live it.

i've lost a friend in my childhood, wish he was back.

aku bingung
aku sedih atau aku selamat?
semalam aku bersama kau
hari ni aku keseorangan
aku sayang kau
kau?
kau kena pergi kan
aku tau kenapa
hati aku perit untuk katakan 'ya aku lepaskan kau'
adakah selama ini aku di dalam permainan kau yang kau bina?
aku tak percaya kau bermain dengan aku
kau tak sanggup pilih
tapi kau perlu
aku tahu kau sayangkan aku
itu sebab kau bagitau
selamat tinggal

:(

Death.

I don't know what is it like to die. but i've had wish a many times.

Here's a friend of mine. He's close with me. Like a bestfriend, a brother to me... he had this disease. a lung disease.. I'm not sure what disease he's having. but I feel sorry for him. and I don't want him to go. I shouldn't say anything bad of someone.. but I could just say that we humans done so many sins. depends we realize it or not, or how big or small the sins are. he told me, he gave up searching something that he was longing for years. a LIFE. love for someone... he did find someone, but maybe not love. well afzan, don't even bother about it, she just can't see. You still have friends and family. Definitely even me... open your eyes... you are strong. and I want you to be strong for your own good. ok?

Everyone, do think if you want to do something. don't regret! I know I'm a brat, but since I've heard those words from him he made my eyes open. And death is not you really want to wish. Allah mengampunkan segala hambanya yang hendak bertaubat dan berserah. Allah menyayangi hambanya yang dekat padanya. LIFE is one of his miracle. appreciate it...

"Think of Allah, then you can see the world..."

together we can teach one another, we need everyone

trust me

What a Hari Raya :)

ikhmal, ayah, ibu, hawa, kak nita, abg zuhry... someones missing, asryyy!

Bila takbir berkumandang semua bersedia dengan pakaian melayunya. serba warna warni kelihatan di mana jua pandangan. ada yang pergi ke masjid dan ada menolong si ibunya di dapur menyiapkan juadah pagi raya menunggu kepulangan mereka yang pergi menunaikan solat raya untuk bulan yang begitu mulia ini. But, i was still sleeping in bed. LOL how obvious could that be :p the night before was so exhausting! actually i just couldn't sleep. tu je problemnya. haha!



Bulan ramadhan is not all because of the food, the new clothes, the duit raya and etc, its because its the time when people will gather around sharing feelings and stories yang mereka ada sepanjang tempoh tidak bertemu. dan itu yang menambahkan sedikit rasa manis kenapa bulan ini yang begitu mulia. Hubungan saudara mara dirapatkan semula yang datang dari utara, selatan atau di mana jua berada, dan ketika ini mereka akan saling bermaaf maafan.

1/2 of my family

ayah ibu

well before the raya came, it was my birthday. yay-me!!! dalam hati berbunyi.. i wish there was gonna be something special with this raya. but it doesn't. it seems particular like other days.. i wonder there was gonna be someone here by my side celebrate together (not anyone in my family but someone else). tapi tak. its one awfull present i ever get. and i hate it. yeah.... i said it.

I HATE IT!

tapi semua itu disembunyikan di bawah senyumku
zahir kau lihat
bukan segalanya
bibir tersenyum menutup segala duka

but let by gone be by gone. Yeah wish this heart is close for no one. let me be blind when i see others when i can't turn back time. I am not a TOY to play with, where you can just hit me into pieces. I don't talk crap. get it... I'm deadly serious man.

so then :) untuk bulan yang mulia dan penuh bermakna ini saya ingin mengucapkan,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir Batin
atas terlepas kata dan terkasar bahasa dan segala-gala yang salah
maafkan kerana saya bukan manusia yang sempurna
and where I'm trying to be one for you guys
you should be lucky





lots of love from Hawa Yusof

happy birthday ibu!

stroll in Kuantan

yeah, last saturday i was at Kuantan. having a holiday with my family. not really exactly, my brother has a tournament back then, but he lost THE END. lol :p I was suppose to go to a gig that saturday with Nurul Aini, dia ajak cause she knows i would totally join them. :) I don't really go to those place melainkan ada orang ajak or some important stuff. hehehe... sebab i have this disease, i would get dizzy and suffercate sebab ramai sangat orang. huhu So disebabkan last minit plan tak menjadi Nurul Aini berusaha untuk datang ke hotel untuk berjumpa. thanks Aini! ilu so much! nanti kita jumpa lagi... hahaha padahal jumpa nak borak2 kosong (hal hal perempuan) so ignore it? :D

ilu ibu ayah

laki terkacak dalam hidup saya

Pada pukul 130, i saw my dads car infront of us. he saw me, sedang kehangatan soooo.... he pujuk me instead he knows i wanted to stroll along at teluk cempedak sambil makan ais krim hehehe. jangan marah ayah. you guys made me come to Kuantan. :) and he did, he drove, ibu pula bla bla bla bebel sebab lapar. haha ayah pun "ye ye dah sampai dah ni" and i was "relaxxx ibuuuu, sini ada macam macam nak melantak" :p We had ikan siakap sweet sour, daging masak merah, tom yam campur. waaaahhhhh, mana tak mata i ni bengkak hidung gatal gatal makan nak sedap je seafood gitu huhu. Apa apa Alhamdulillah sedap perut suka :)

hehehe atlast dapat fav aiskrimku
cornetto chocolate sundae
:)

On our way back, we nearly had an accident, subhanallah, it was raining and that fool what was he thinking??? if it was'nt because of my dad dapat elak rasanya i wont be here anymore writing this. serious i cakap... jalan dekat dengan genting tu, berliku liku kan?? dah tau nak balik cepat janganlah sampai memaksa diri bawak kereta tu. Rasanya kalau bukan nasib kita untuk hidup lagi, dah ramai lagi terkorban sebab kereta berduyun duyun kat belakang. Who ever was in that car, u were lucky. humph! :(

lupa pula, kami sempat singgah di Saloma Hartamas untuk dinner. hehehe

remember people drive carefully,

jika tidak anda salah seorang yang saya akan sumpah sumpah

gooday :)

LORONG SENi PUTRAJAYA

LORONG SENi PUTRAJAYA, pada hari itu me and my friends decided to do a favor untuk perform di lorong seni. yeah everything was planned perfectly... then tiba tiba ayah, risau pula kenapa? sampai nak jumpa shawal, yusuff, dgn ezy. mereka tidak jahat :) they treated me well sepanjang al kisah di putrajaya.

so on our way ke destinasi kami iaitu menara kementerian belia sukan, the road tengah jam! erhhhh.... try alternatif way pon sama je. so last kami pun park kt rumah lama i dulu, ada pun tmpt nak parking hehehe. ok ok check! everything set up dengan guitar semua. tp i xbawak beg guitar pun sebab yusuff tolong bawak kan. heee :D yusuff i tak nak susahkan u sebenarnya tapi i malu nak ckp kat u? u jangan la baik sangat sampai camtu sekali. kang u risau i kembang lagi lol. *winkwink

kami begitu hot hot sekali. hot hot sebab panas oiiiyhh..... baru panas dunia belum akhirat subhanallah. hihi. jalan jalan lalu di jambatan sambil menghirup udara yang suam suam gitu. haha mula lah mereka berbunyi bunyi. "kita tak kan nak bawak nama LYDIA kot? macam xkena je, genre acoustic" suara dari ezy.. "apa kata kita bawak nama hawauu and the band" shawal membalas. waahhh sungguh selesa shawal itu memanggil namaku hawauu?? nama i sedap dah ok nak tambah wau wau kat belakang pula dia. grrr.... nasib baik ezy cover balik "isk kesian la kat dia, tak baik, jangan kacau" sungguh senyumanku sampai ke telinga. hahaha tak kesah la, i bukannya marah pun, sebab tengah teruja sebenarnya. :D

yang yusuff? gelak je memandang.... bergilir ganti. tak i dia, tak dia i... :) one prob yang kami sedar, event tu bukan hanya setempat yang tak besar mana it was really HUGE! damn... menara KBS tak ditemui lagi. tanya orang sana kata situ, tanya org situ kata sana. ehhhhh... main main lak dorg neh. tak mengapa.. kami terus berusaha mencari tempat itu. tapi, apabila sampainya di depan maybank, uh-oh nature calls. kene pergi rest rooM! eshhh red flag. masalah perempuan pula datangnya.... macam nak menangis je rasa. why does it has to be on that day? :( tak apa i buat no no je dah. i bagitau shawal, shawal dgn yakin memahami i. hahhaa tengok2 the 2 guys were peeking by the window behind me. lol *blushing. kata yusuff dah agak daaa. pandai betul dia agak2. hahaha..

sigh"..

our mission has to go on. itu tujuan i. i tak nak sebab i mereka tak dapat nak perform. if i cant go on stage sebab masalah 'teknikal' atleast yusuff ada untuk jadi front man. :) others and him are someone who can be trustworthy and commited. itu bagi pandangan i bila kali pertama dapat praktis bersama sama before nak perform. so delighted to be apart with them. ilu guys!

ok, dah sampai setelah berkurun mencari KBS. kami telah sampai di sana dengan penuh penatnya... waaa.... i was sweating to death. need refill, topup air jap dalam badan uhuhu before kami start praktis. praktis praktis berlaku kerumitan. michrophone tak cukup? stage tak besar. tapi muat je la. haha tidak mengapa, itu bukan masalah besar bagi kami. :) but akhirnya masa yang diberikan untuk kami perform di ambil alih oleh audition erma fatimah? what? hmmm mengapa terjadinya begini. abul, he tried berkompromi dengan mereka and urusetia. but kami tau macam tak dapat je. so we decided to just let it be. mungkin rezeki kami tak ada pada hari itu.

yusuff "i terasa nak karoke" i pun "jom alamanda!! :D" apa lagi beredarlah kami ke alamanda. hihi ezy, erin, shawal, yusuff, me shared money nak karok untuk sejam. ketika di room 106, if tak silap lah, :p i can see how they really feel. it was UNEXPECTED! rock kapak? haha? *gelak pelik. and why i nyanyi lagu the beatles I WANNA HOLD YOUR HANDS is such a big deal ezyyy??? lol! ok waaaaattt :D

the beatles abbey road


hujan doing that move

bila lagi me and my friends dapat buat mcm ni? :p

btw, i sedar there was this one time we were crossing the zebralines, how funny it looks like we were doing the beatles cover album. lol! and someone took our pics! damn need it. sigh" bak kata yusuff when he perasan juga on that time, i was the one who walked like the robot ngahahaha! memandai je

masa berlalu sejam sudah. semua penat and ada plan masing masing. mereka nak pergi jamming kat studio baru, i pergi bukit jalil, endah parade nak tengok adik i training bowling. kesimpulannya kawan kawan i had fun! i hope u guys did. :)

p/s: ilu guys thanks for everything
shawal,ezy,yusuff,erin,abul and kawan2 lain sekali that i met the other day :)