Sayang, Imam, Aboh

Beberapa hari selepas berpisah macam-macam yang difikirkan. Tipu kalau hati tak ingatkan dia. Hubungan sbg pasangan bertahun dilalui, hubungan sbg suami isteri tidak sampai setahun. Allah pun telah hadiahkan malik pada kami tapi hubungan sebagai ibu dan aboh pada malik tidak kesampaian. ='( 

Mana janji-janji mahu hidup bahagia sekeluarga? Kau pergi dan datang macam tu je. Mana lelaki yang aku kenal, yang mahu mendidikku, menerimaku sbb agamaku, menerimaku sbb sayangkanku, yang mahu anak sebaik diriku.

Aku terkulai bila kau pergi. Ya Allah.. betul ke apa yang berlaku. Aku tahu akan kesalahanku, aku bukan manusia yang sempurna. Aku sayangkan dia.. marahku kerana aku terasa diri ni di pandang hina, yang tak dihargai. Aku tak pernah mengharapkan kau jadi suami yang sempurna, aku terima akan setiap silap, tapi kenapa kau xboleh terima kekuranganku. Bersabarlah denganku dan didikan aku untuk jadi isteri yang mulia. Bukan mencari alasan kekurangan ni sebagai penyebab untuk mencari kesempurnaan pada orang lain. 

Tak ingat ke, dulu kala, kita pernah ada pada masa tu juga. ada pada tempat kau dan dia sekarang ni? ='( Aku xpernah paksa untuk kau terima aku, atau berkahwin dengan aku. Kita berkahwin sebab atas dasar sayang kita. Betul tak? Mana kau pergi... Mana kau lupakan diri... kalau satu hari nanti aku terdengar berita kau akan kahwininya, aku doakan kau bahagia, itulah yang aku selalu nakkan. Asalnya untuk melihat kau bahagia dgn aku, tapi xberkesampaian ='( kau tak berikan peluang tu untuk aku. Jagalah diri sayang. Aku rindukan kau.. malik pun juga.. 

Perpisahan

Tiada siapa yang mahukan perpisahan. Selama ni tengok di kaca tv cerita orang cerai berai, tapi Allah dah takdirkan juga untuk dilalui walaupun perkahwinan tidak sampai setahun dan bayi baru sahaja reti di agah.

Pilunya hati ditinggalkan, kasih yang masih baru sahaja hendak disulam berakhir sekelip mata. Mungkin perpisahan ini satu permulaan baru yang Allah mahu sediakan.

Bagi yang sedang mengalami, tabahkanlah hati sekuat-kuatnya, mungkin senang bagi yg pergi, tapi yang ditinggalkan semestinya masih tersangkut terbayang-bayang kasih yang masih diharapkan boleh membahagiakan hidup. tak apa, tak salah, kita dijadikan manusia yang normal, bukan manusia berhati besi. Nangislah sepuas-puasnya tapi jangan terlalu lama, kerana air mata ini bukan untuk dia tapi untuk NYA.

Ingatlah hati ini milik Allah SWT. ingatlah harta atau dunia ini dijadikan sementara. Yang bernilai adalah disebalik ujian-ujian yang ditetapkan. Apa yang disebalik ditetapkan tu? Allah sahaja yang tahu perkara ghaib. Maka banyakkan doa semoga diberi petunjuk.

Kenapa rasa mcm nak kecoh je pasal hal rumah tangga?? Bukan.. bukan nak kecoh, tapi ingin menolong bagi sesiapa yang kat luar sana yang pedih sedih disebalik senyum tu, untuk bersabarlah, kuatkanlah untuk diri, untuk anak (kalau ada), saya pun hari-hari cuba untuk lupakan, cuba untuk teruskan hidup tanpa peneman hidup. Dan apa yang memberi semangat sehingga hari ini, adalah apabila melihat anugerah Allah berikan, iaitu malik ibu. Besarnya KUASANYA, dari rasa tak boleh teruskan hidup, hanya dengan melihat si kecil boleh buat kita untuk bangkit semula.

"orang yang imannya kukuh ujiannya semakin berat. Dan mana agamanya rapuh, dia diuji mengikut kadar keimanannya" HR at-Tirmidzi (2/64)

Percayalah dengan apa yang Allah tetapkan semestinya adalah yang terbaik untuk kita. Allah uji kita untuk tengok kita kuat atau tidak, ingat Nya atau tidak. Semakin diuji tanda semakin Allah sayang. Dari Mus'ab bin Said daripada bapanya yang berkata:

Aku bertanya kepada Rasulullah siapakah manusia yang paling dasyat menerima bala? Maka dijawab: "Para Nabi kemudian yang seperti mereka dan yang seperti mereka. Diuji seorang manusia itu berdasarkan kadar agamanya. Jika dia seorang yang kuat beragama, maka kuatlah pula bala yang diterimanya. Jika seseorang itu lemah agamanya, maka diuji hanya pada kadar agamanya. Tidaklah hilangnya bala itu pada seseorang hamba sehinggalah dia berjalan di atas tanah dengan telah terhapus segala dosa-dosanya." Hadis sahih riwayat Muslim no. 2999

Kawan-kawan, kalau tahu atau jumpa seseorang yang sedang alami situasi ni, tolonglah mereka. Mereka perlukan bantuan untuk kembali berdiri. Saya alhamdulillah ada keluarga yang sangat menyayangi saya. Bersyukur sangat. Dan pastinya, mereka perlu orang dengarkan luahan kesedihannya dan bantunya untuk bangkit semula. Alihkan perhatian dia, jangan biarkan dia bersendirian, Syaitan akan sentiasa berbisik ditelinga untuk alpa atau lupa, hasut kita untuk buat benda yang tak baik. InsyaAllah masa akan sembuhkan hatinya. Saya pun perlu berkawan atau berjumpa dengan orang bagi alihkan perhatian. Susah, memang susah untuk abaikan perasaan yang ada dalam hati.

Allah SWT sahaja yang tahu. =')

Doa Untukmu.

Bismillah...

Ya Allah ya tuhanku, ampunkanlah dosa hambamu ini, ampunkanlah atas segala dosa yang telah ku lakukan selama ini ya Allah. Ya Allah ampunkanlah dosa muhammad nur jannah bin abdullah. dosa kecilnya dan dosa besarnya ya Allah. Dosa sesama manusia dan padamu ya Allah. Kau maha pengampun lagi maha penyayang.

Sebagai hambamu ini, aku berendah diri memohon kekuatan untuk muhd nur jannah ya Allah. kekuatan untuk menempuh segala dugaan yang kau berikan kepada kepada ku dan padanya ya Allah. berikanlah kekuatan iman, kekuatan diri kepadanya ya Allah. Ya Allah ya tuhanku aku percaya pada segala yang berlaku ada hikmahnya ya Allah, sesungguhnya Kau maha mengetahui maka kau tunjukkanlah padaku dan dirinya, berikan petunjuk kepada kami ke jalan yang benar dan yang halal bagi mu ya Allah. Aku percaya ya Allah, aku percaya ya Allah!

Ya Allah, murahkanlah rezeki muhd nur jannah dan keluarganya, murahkan rezeki pendapatan, perkerjaan dan kasih sayang padanya ya Allah. rezeki yang halal dan yang baik-baik ya Allah. sesungguhnya kaulah maha kaya dengan rezeki mu atas muka bumi ini.

Ya Allah. aku memohon padamu, kau pertemukanlah muhd nur jannah bin abdullah padanya jodoh yang baik-baik dan yang halal baginya ya Allah, berkatilah jodoh itu dengan penuh keberkatan dan kasih sayang. aku redha ya Allah, atas segala yang berlaku, aku redha.. maka kau berikanlah pahala atas keredhaanku dan keredhaannya.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan hidupku dan hidupnya dunia dan akhirat ya Allah, hari ini dan hari seterusnya. Engkaulah maha berkuasa di atas muka bumi ini. kaulah yang menentukan segala qada dan qadar. dengan itu, kau sempurnakan doa hambamu ini... dengan serendah rendahnya ku memohon padamu... amin...

will your heart ever be mine? :')

Ya Allah.. tabahkan hati ini untuk apa jua ketentuanMu.. why is he so confuse. :'( sampai bila perlu rasa ..perlu tunggu.. jawapan yang pasti hati dia untuk saya. Yang pasti hati semua milik Allah. Ya Allah kau tetapkanlah hatinya. bukakan matanya.. hatinya.. I really wish he realize that im not her. And shes not here for him anymore. Why ask something that you could remind me of her. Your smart to think of it yourself. And your too scared to admit it. Dear loved one, perhatikan apa yg Allah dah tetapkan.. kenapa nak berputus asa sedangkaan segala ujian Allah berikan hanya untuk kita ingatkan Nya, hanya untuk menunjukkan bahawa Dia sentiasa mengingati kita. dont ever despair.. have you ever wonder why im here? How ive always open my heart when you know youve done so much things that anyone could hurt so badly? And you know that im hurt. Have you ever realize.. you came back to me everytim when your alone. Remember? How I was really happy that I thought you've made up your mind for choosing me? :') I wish that I was never a mistake in your life. Allah lebih memahami.

Our First JB 10KM Run

 hi peeps! Hehe just got back from johor bahru. Ive had my run yesterday with my dearly jahn awwww hes being sweet too much :D

I never thought that he would be running with me. Haha sorry... :p he keeps saying that he cant run that far. But now ... there you go, I heard hes gonna try to run for another event to prove it wasnt 4 mins away from me for yesterdays run. LOL!

Sayang betul I tak tipu . You were really 4 mins away je hehehe. A lil congrats for him. You did great! I love youuu.. harap you lari tinggalkan I jauh semalam bukan sebab nak ngorat orang lain hee :p kecian I sorangsorang lari esh esh esh hehehe.

We took some pics. But most of it is in his iphone because my phone is too big to bring :(

It was getting late..ive got to get back to klang. Thanks for this 2 days dear. Wish it never
had to end.

ComeBack.

Hi everyone.

Days passes by so quickly and it has been 10 months after my last post? :( I've been busy working and now I'm running. cant you believe it??! i cant too. LOL 10 kilometres is not NEAR, that i can say. ehe..

But its a new thing that i can see in myself. :) i never see me, being a runner in the future. All i can remember was running from running. you see? HAHA. :D Yeah and i did a few 10km's lately.. and experience ending up in the ambulance once. :p Honestly, i quiet enjoy it tho. not being injured and got carried away by the ambulance sillyyy.... I enjoyed running. Now i know i can atleast run for 10-12km's why dont i just keep running for my health and beauty. yelaaaa people are halfway seeing me as mila kunis. why not try to get to be LIKE HERRR... :"D wah.... Amin... Amin... 

About my job, i got my Permanent Position on the month of puasa, i got my first bonus advance the same month, and celebrated my 22nd birthday the same month as well (kena suka ke? reminds me of being tua already buhoo :p). Alhamdulillah, tho its not what i really expect in this year, i really appreciate what Allah had given to me. Who expects righttt?? Im 22years old holding a good position, good salary, with a diploma. Friends, this is all written. though you guys are not having jobs like i am, but hey, look at the bright side, your going for your degree, and its really AWESOME. Do your best! this means you can do much more then i can. so dont worry much okay? :D

One more... he's back. Alhamdulillah. Im happy and so does he. its not im being weak or theres no other guys to go to?? i just cant let him away from my feelings and deleting him for good. he really means so much to me. and everyone is giving greenlights or nice compliment about me, and somehow made him realize, how much i have or do for him ( i guess) in the couple of years back then. :( 3 months ago was the hardest. sayang... i really, really want you to know that, i dont want to feel that way again. i'm scared... :'( i miss you.

okay thats enough to make my eyes shut already huuuuu :'D (wiping my tears off). Semoga Allah memberkati setiap langkah dan niat semua. Amin.. InsyaAllah... Assalamualaikum. toodles!

Things going by

Assalamualaikum hi again :) just want to share with you guys that i finally got the job as a Secretary in Bank Rakyat. its was quiet tough and challenging. but its ok lets give it a try maybe this is my way for living.

Yesterday, i got a really sad news from a friend. a friend of mine passed away two weeks before. arwah was someone nice. let us pray for him. Al fatihah.

on the mean time.. i heard something else instead. my bf ex's tried to get back to him. what am i suppose to do? its really hard for me. i wish he knew. i wish he would never picked up the call. maybe you can see me smile look at me listening to you. but i was so touched, and i didnt even want us to get in a fight. just hope that you knew. :( you know its so hard to meet each other. and i came with my family, and i wanted to be happy with you.. spend my time every second with you. just hope you understand. i dont want anyone to get in the way. what did i ever do to get this.

there's nothing special than you

there's nothing meaningful than my times with you

everything is priceless when i lost you

if there ever comes a day that we can't be together

keep me in your heart

i'll stay there forever

Penantian

setiap kali kau jatuh, akan aku hulurkan tangan ini dan bantu. bila kau sedih, akan aku pujuk hati itu dan buat kau tersenyum. jangan pernah kau mengeluh, jangan pernah kau berduka. buat segala yang kau hendak, dan aku, :) aku akan sentiasa berada di sini. jangan pernah kau rasa susah, bila aku korbankan setitik peluh kerana senyuman kau sentiasa buat aku suka. dan bila kita rasa rindu, dan susah, sabar dan senyum sahaja, kerana, ada rezeki yang lebih baik menanti. mungkin tuhan sengaja menguji kita, menyelamatkan kita. jadi sabar sahaja. aku ada di sini. menanti.. jikalau kau jodoh terbaik untukku, tak usah aku gusar kan? dan jika aku jodoh terbaik untuk kau, mudah mudahan, kau tahu :)

cerita skaf bunga

SHOCKINGG! yayy, u really did came to meet me. :) waiting for a couple of hours its ok i guess. boleh buat lagii... haha. yela... kejap ktm shah alam, kejap kl sentral. so i decided to go to mid valley and meet you there. haaa senanggkannn huhu. tapi jam pula tsk tsk... jalan jalan window shopping pun takpe, sbb next weeknya payday alangkah sukanya kalau gaji dah masuk masa tuuu. :p boleh beli belah time tu haha.

Konon-konon nak buat muka marah, merajuk butttt...... tak boleh, even im hot mad when i get to see you infront of me, you make me smile away. i mish you really i mish you. all the week ive been merajuk dgn you is for my goodness. you broke my little heart. how could you, really.. its a lesson to teach you, how it feels when you really want me gone. do you feel lonely without me dear? do you feel of want to cry when i said that im leaving you? well i felt it before i ever could say it.

"I dah nampak you (giggled)" si manis berkata... from far away.... i saw you searching. hmmm how will it be if i never showed up? :( you'll be just standing there with your friend. wandering around thinking what you've done perhaps. but i did. i would feel really kejam, if i were at ur place.

"Nak amin.. nak amin :) (you looked very scared+ashamed+happy, cmne tu?? haaa tu yang i nampak lah hehe)" jejaka meminta.. haha. ya saya suka dimanja.... nak peluk awak kuatkuat boleh? hmmm... :(

Ahhh... u tried to pleased me. dah lama kita tak tengok wayang and makan samasama. lagilagi, dapat cakapcakap lelama kan? i malu.. emm.... mana tak! saya makan pun awak nak curikcurik pandang. macam lah i tak nampak. haha i ada 4 mata tau. jangan mainmain hehe.

Dear love, do you know that you made me laugh out loud when i watched you? haha. penakut nak cakap dengan orang jaga tiket kaunter! i dah beritahu cakap beli tiket station apaapa lepas tu tanya naik platform mana, tu pun susah. huhuhu. you kata you budak kampung, tapi pakai kereta hoh. i ni kereta pun tak bawaaakk. hehe sbb takde lesen :p katanya it was your second time naik train. awww kecian dia. huhu. takpe, let that be our memories together. naik train sama2 huhu. and it was your last day anyway :( nak balik jb dah kan. you took all the pictures of me as much as you could. are you ok dear? :'( im right here.

As we arrived at Bandar Tasik Selatan, i was keeping my tears a side. knowing that you'll be going soon. your ticket was at 2.30pm and its 2.10pm already, why so soooonnn??? its okay, your the one who has to go on the bus. i dont want anything to happen to you. we had a walk around the area, its like an airport. LOL. teruja kot sebenarnya jalanjalan tgk kedai dalam tu hehe. and we went to this gift store, ada skaf katanya. awwww comel skaf skaf sana huhu. u pulled one by one and put it on me. :) comel ke? huhu i dah lama tak pakai skaf. tapi awak, saya tak ada duit. :( cukup nak balik naik train je. awak pun ada berapa je tuk balik nanti. takpe awak simpan dulu k duit tu. nanti, bila kita jumpa lagi, kita ada duit lebih, kita cari skaf sama k!

cut, cut, cut!! cut bahagian sedih time you nak balik tu huhuhu :'(

Well pendek cerita sebenarnya i hope your words will be true. that you'll love me as i do for you. jaga i, didik i, insyaAllah.. bila sampai masa, tekad dan tawakal insyaAllah, Allah jawabkan doa kami. tahu? setiap lelaki yang jatuhkan airmata wanita ke tanah, sesungguhnya berdosa besar? betul ke? saya dengar dari kawan... saya tahu awak akan baca ni nanti :p jadi kalau awak tahu betul ke tak, kongsi2 k dgn i.

Sorry k bahasa dah tunggang langgang :D kononnya nak jadi penulis cerita yang berjaya hehehe.

iloveyou :)

Hurt.

friend, i thought you were to be trusted. and you, thanks for stabbing my back. all that i ever hoped came crushed when i knew. you wanted another chance if you somehow could come back for me, but what happened to the chances i gave you thousands time back then? you took me for granted. how silly i am. and fooled... im not mad if you ever want to go and flirt someone else, i am open to let you go as u pleased, i'll pray you thousands of times to make you happy, for sure i know i havent pleased you a bit. a minute you were here, but in a second you disappear. you left me out alone. i fell, and i was hurt. i dont think, no one could ever heal this wound. not even you. :'(

crackeology

Is it true? my heart asks,scaredly

Why did you do? i wonder,sadly

I'll be alone this time. Yes i have too,cowardly

.can you do one favor for me.

that you'll never EVER make this tears drop.

neither when im here, neither when im not.

-thislovefreaksout-

Jannah Abdullah

the.night.we.celebrate.your.birthday.dear.

jannah. sedapkan nama tu? :) bermaksud syurga... wahhh gitu hehe. yeah.. he was im with a year long. we had something together. what we call love. love doesnt mean that we own it. its not ours if Allah swt said so. it was tough for us two. but somehow i realize there's been obstacles trying to pull us apart. dear jannah, im sorry if i had done bad things towards you. im really sorry. i never wanted you to shed tears even a drop just because of me. thanks for the love you gave. those smiles and giggles for me at times when we met and in phones. though you dont quiet talk alot. hee :D i sayangkan u. but i dont know, i ,yg u mahu. i tahu ramai lagi yang lebih layak untuk u. i sentiasa doakan u. mana yang terbaik. mcm mana sakit atau pedih i terasa, i tak pernah berhenti doakan untuk u. u said i tak pernah fikirkan tentang u. well i did. and i cried. :'( since the first time we met in kuantan and the last time at johor bharu. such memories kan sayang? its not i dont want to tell everyone here in this blog, its just because i forgotten about it. and there was too many to share about. jannah, i tak mampu jadi seseorang yang u harapkan, and it will make u sad i know. and again i dont want it to be that way, tengok u kecewa tentang i. i mcm budakbudak i tahu. hmmmppp budakbudak. :( i miss you. being us near. boleh tolong ingat, yang i sayangkan u. jangan pernah lupa :'( if apa-apa terjadi.

cupcakechump!

yes, i'm not gonna lie myself, that my new hobby or interest is baking. HAHA. lame isn't it? :D i know its a boring hobby but i found it fun baking cupcakes for parties,presents, door gift or any events. yup! that's right. i'm starting a business here at Bukit Raja, Klang where my home is. i had positive feed backs when my friends and family tasted (quite alot!) and see that i can bake. huhu absurd ain't i? :) well friends take this as a fun thing that u can add up in your parties and etc... it's a CUTE CUPCAKE. who wouldn't resist it? :p Alhamdulillah it's going great! i'll be opening up a new blog for 'cupcakechump'. insyaAllah. stay tuned :D

looking at this makes my mouth watery

LOL!

LIRIK MAHU KAMU - by hawayusof

aku terbang membuka sayapku

melihat burung berkicauan

menyanyi bersamaku

aku mahu kamu

oh mahu kamu

saat pertama bersama kamu

ku leka melihat senyummu

aku mencuri hati untuk kamu

ku mahu kamu

oh oh mahu kamu

indah kau sambut

pelangi terbentuk

bunga bunga ku lihat

kamu mahu aku

mahu aku

saat pertama bersama kamu

kau punya aku

memang punya aku

ku mahu kamu

oh oh mahu kamu

kau peganglah kunci hati

mahu kamu bagi nanti

boleh ku buka untuk satu hari nanti

ku mahu kamu, mahu kamu.

M. AFZAN

Afzan, i just cant hold myself from crying when i heard you.

As if i felt how pain you are.

try too be strong to stay alive as long as you can.

don't ever give up hope.

i'll be right here, and your other friends praying for you.

when you said u were glad to have a friend like me, i should be glad to have a friend like you.

you will always be remembered and loved.

thanks for all this moment together.

thanks Afzan. :'(

nothing for you, and nothing for me

its been a while. i had a call. and you know, i was really terrified. one thing that i can't imagined the most is that knowing you are with somebody else. i was thrown far away, i just couldnt say. my eyes shed more tears a day. this is my confessions...

if i want to say, i better say it all. u were once i adored, i hoped nothing more than just you. people just promise as it was just words of emptiness hope. that u can never trust no more. what happen to 'love until i die'. all the tiny presents i had from you. i never had feelings with somebody how when i was with you. but that night, how you see me through. i saw, that your love is no longer mine. shes whats important now. im a hollow body, trapped in this world waiting for nothing to let me pass through here.

i better confess it now... how i hate to hear your voice.when i know it no longer bring me smile. tho i want to know how your doing just kills me right.

i better confess it now... how i want you to leave me. but i just couldn't stop looking at my phone hoping u give a beep.

i better confess it now... oh i just want you to throw the things i gave to you so you wont remember me that you will always hold me dear. as i just remove all the things i had with you somewhere i wish i couldnt find it near.

go... please go... dont reach me if you dont want to see me cry. im sick. so theres nothing for you and nothing for me. what i really want 1 year ago was my only one wish.

I'll be fine

So here I'm standing all alone, independently on my own
Looking down, staring at my toes
What's up my head nobody knows
I'm still hurt but that's okay, I was stupid, what can I say?
When it's all over, it rewinds

It never seems to come out right,
So we'll just walk away and I guess that's alright
And I'm always left confused but I don't mind
Now don't you worry I'll be fine

You're so convincing so I see, it's in the way you look at me
Your smile just somehow hypnotizes - to simply see truth in your eyes
So it's you I once adored, I'm not a little girl no more
Cause I am used to these kinda games, they come and go again and again

It never seems to turn out right,
So we'll just end it here and I guess that's alright
And now I'm all alone but I don't mind
It's better get away I'll be fine.

New Year!

New Year!

Azam tahun baru ini... let see.

- azam tahun lepas pun tak terbuat
- do i have too? its like a tradition bila setiap tahun akan berakhir
- wait, ur not even gonna make any change while just sitting at home. daaaaaaa..... sigh.
- mesti carik keje, thats what i have too.
- simpan doit lah!
- make physical change to myself, i think so? (buat faham2 je k)
- amek lesen semestinya!
- uh! uh! nak keretaaaaaaa please ayahhhhh... LOL!
- improve my amal ibadat. insyaAllah.
- jodoh? huff.....
- carik rumah :)

yeah i think i listed all of it. ngeh ngeh... baru pukul 1030 and im already tired! damn... haha
memang org jenis tak boleh bawak keluar punya. huhu

remembering my childhood memories

hi again, it's been a while. today i would like to tell you about my childhood past. and there you go a few shots when i was little. back then i was really cute ain't i. hahaha so perasan, sorry.

what can i say, yeah... i have a few big fans, all the uncle-uncle and makcik-makcik. hehehe sometimes they would rebut to carry me. LOL! my dad said, 'entah kenapa orang nak sangat dukung hawa tu, ibu ayah siap osom sebab tak larat angkat, TERLEBIH SIHAT lah katakan'. grrr... i took that as a compliment though sigh'.

i was the only girl in the family so why not put on some pretty things to her. and there you go a fashionista in the age 2yrs. some of my friends said, i dont look like malay, ok heres what they usually see me as ( chinese, mamak, philipine, siam, indonesian, arab, omputeh and sekian lanjutnya kalau boleh nak letak semua nama negara) because they dont see my face similar to my siblings. what?? im adopted now? hahaha no exactly. i came from a family from javanese (my dad side) and bugis (my mom side). i think i dont look like my parents too. i just have thier nose and smile. my parents would always like battle each other nak cakap muka ni macam muka masing-masing when setiap kali people would say something nice about me like 'comelnya muka diaaa' or even 'alolorh mata sape dia ada neh'. comon ibu.. dad.. you know im your only daughter. :)

asry, me, zuhry

grandpa :(

but time flew by fast now and im 20yrs already. i miss my atuk and nenek. looking at thier photos recently. your always in my heart and i'll never forget you.

ok people, always remember your childhood memories, it maybe funny, or horrible but i know it is something you dont wanna hilang it.

its precious.

live it.

i've lost a friend in my childhood, wish he was back.

aku bingung
aku sedih atau aku selamat?
semalam aku bersama kau
hari ni aku keseorangan
aku sayang kau
kau?
kau kena pergi kan
aku tau kenapa
hati aku perit untuk katakan 'ya aku lepaskan kau'
adakah selama ini aku di dalam permainan kau yang kau bina?
aku tak percaya kau bermain dengan aku
kau tak sanggup pilih
tapi kau perlu
aku tahu kau sayangkan aku
itu sebab kau bagitau
selamat tinggal

:(